| Veganism is a win. I never thought it could be so easy! I mean, I have to hunt a bit for the cheap, easy food, but I fucking love fruits and nuts, so I eat a lot of those, and usually some kind of vegan microwave meal if I'm craving something warmer. As you can see, my weight has dropped back below 140, and I'm on my way to 130 by the time school starts back up. That would be *fantastical*! I have given up Pepsi again, and with my new diet, I feel so much healthier, and also better about the poor animals involved.
Reading Skinny Bitch was pretty enlightening. Don't get me wrong - the writers are morons when it comes to actual diet stuff. One of the reasons they gave against drinking coffee is that the beans are often sprayed with pesticides. Um... so are all plants. Like, I get that coffee is bad for you - the caffeine jolt is crazy. But that's just such a dumb reason. Anyway, it was enlightening, getting a look at the abuse animals suffer, even if they aren't strictly being used for meat. I would recommend it to all people - meat-eaters, vegetarians, vegans. Skip to the chapters about the animals, though. The rest is just elitist, condescending bullshit. I will warn you, some parts are graphic, so if you're sensitive to that, don't do it.
My brain seems to have reprogrammed itself. I occasionally crave sweets, and likewise, OCCASIONALLY indulge. But mostly, I crave fruits and nuts. Healthy stuff. And I can't wait to get back to the gym on campus. I'm gonna try to go before class on most days. It should be an awesome way to kick-start my day with some energy!
Personal life is sort of a 'wtf' at the moment. A rollercoaster, even. My relationships are all fucked up. One minute there's screaming matches, and the next, peace. My only constant is my best friend. I can't wait to see her again; we're rooming together this year! I've missed her so much this summer. She's the only one I can talk to about anything, without fear of judgement. She has seen me at my worst and knows about the most awful things I've done, but loves me wholly anyway. I don't deserve her, but I'll keep her anyway, because I'm an asshole like that. =P
Trying to just keep positive thoughts. My life feels more balanced lately in some senses. I mean, everything's going to hell in a handbasket, at least on some fronts, but I'm able to keep my cool much more often. I write when I'm particularly frustrated - just silly little shorts. But they help me through, and I'm much more emotionally balanced. I think it'll be even easier once I get back to school and get involved again.
Stay strong, ladies! |
